Last Night.




Was there at 4 to start on the models' hair..

and whoa. free flow of beer, ben&jerry's, vodka redbull, popcorn, frolick, toasted marshmallows, pretzels, etc.

oh my goodness its madness.

i had a FUCKING good time. seriously unbelievable.

the show was good, the drinks were great and the party was crazy.

fucking love.

i need to be alone for a few days.

i'll be fine.

shellen attempted suicide.
and is now hospitalized.
i'm glad they found her in time.

ben butt & dbl o.

Valentine's







Holland.




Pool.











Back up.










Thank u.

i thought it was over but its not.

last night was a blast. and i'm still here.

pics will be up soon, hopefully.

happy belated valentine's.

i just had roses delivered to my place.

i know its from you.

thanks :)

Don't hang up,
Can we talk?
So confused
It's like im lost.
What went wrong?
what made you go?
Don't pretend you don't know
This is me
Im unchangeable

When did we
Fall apart?
Or did you lie
From the start?
When you said
Its only you
I was blind
Such a fool
Thinking we
Were unbreakable

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
was it something that I did?
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful.

Ive been told
Whats done is done
To let it go
And carry on
And deep inside
I know that's true
Im stuck in time
Im stuck on you
We were still untouchable

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more.
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful

Wake up, wake up, wake up
Cuz im only dreaming
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my head now

Because we're much better
All together
Can't let go.

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?

Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful
Made me unbeautiful...

why are u being so nice to me

So this is when we finally learn the real
meaning of change. You do the things you
used to be against , you date the people you
thought you never would, & you befriend the
people you used to hate.

You'll learn what
it's like to have your heart broken , to lose
a friend that truly meant something to you,
& to feel as if everything's really falling apart.

There'll be times that your life seems so
absolutely horrible it feels like it's not real.

Despite all this, good things will come too.

You'll make the most amazing friends that
will be there for you even when they probably
shouldn't.

Your broken heart will heal once you
find the most perfect guy you've ever met, &
just as nothing else can go wrong, things will
only get better .

There'll be the days you`re so
happy, & the days that you feel like dying. Drama
happens, gossip goes around, & people talk crap.

Maybe it's life,or
maybe this is just what growing up is like.

april is gonna be a fucking good month.

anyway last fri was spent at darren's for cny.. sat at zouk.. wed at gym and darren's for guitar heroes but manda nic and i ended up talking cock and slping on the sofas outside..

last night was spent at dbl o.

ive got so much to do for my course and grad show..

im graduating next-fucking-month. march 21st. 35 more days excluding weekends.

dbl o.

i like to refer to The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button as just BEN BUTT.