Today, i realised how silly i was.

to be bothered and stressed out by these little irrelevant things that wouldn't make much of a difference in my life, and its just a phase which i'll eventually get over.

i've got bigger things to worry about.

my future.

my life.

me.

i gotta decide once and for all if i really want it. its pretty much decided though.. i'm just a little scared, a little nervous, a little excited; but all in a gd way.

its nt something i cld give up halfway.. neither would i want to.

a fren suggested to write down the pros and cons.. a few days ago, i couldn't come up with any cons.

mel failed her fast-track for the 2nd time. she was Batch 20's Distinction and Outstanding Student. which makes her a double award student, out of the past 20 batches, she was the 5th to get it. Not all batch has a Distinction student.

even somebody of her caliber cant pass.. which makes me realise, life isnt as smooth sailing as it seems.

i was talking to her this afternoon at work and she told me all the problems she went through.. hoping i would get a better idea of wat i'm getting myself into..

i gotta work extra hard and prove ppl wrong.. even if its gg back to the salon on Sats to gain more experience and coming back on model nights.

which brings me to another question,



am i doing it for me?