why do things get so fucking complicated when you grow up?

watever happened to i like u. u like me. lets be together.

he's out of town now.. which gives me time to think.. nic is trying to talk me out of it whenever she has the chance to..

i'm trying to convince myself as well.. hmm i was doing so well for the past few days until he called.

it takes one phone call from him to get me all thinking again.

he called the night before, last night and this afternoon.. when i was watching zohan with alex.

i dunno wtf i'm doing. this time is different bcos i cant run away like i usually do..

i have my way of dealing with problems.. i ignore. which i'm pretty good at, btw.

but i have so much more to lose if i run away this time.. its not worth it.. and i dun wan to..

think, vanessa.

think.


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